Getting ready to jump

I am getting ready to jump feet first in the deep end of the pool and to tell you the truth I am afraid and have always been afraid. What am I talking about you are probably asking.

I am going to start the Paleo Lifestyle tomorrow all by myself. I am not being pressured into doing it or anything and so I think I am ready to do it. MY biggest mountian will be the sugar. I love my Pepsi and my coffee. I have a sweet tooth every now and then I really have not had one lately. MY sweet tooth is usually a pint of Ben and Jerry's in one sitting while watching tv or I will have a bag of chocolate and watch tv and the next thing I know the bag is gone and I feel sick for eating the whole thing.

Sorry back to tomorrow and why I am scared. I know that there is a skinny beautiful free spirited woman in me somewhere and I am afriad of her because I have never met her before. Will I be happier and healthier if I met her? By all means I would be. I have PCOS, High Blood Pressure and My choloestrol is out of whack because of the weight.
I have a 5 yr old daughter who is my everything and she looks up to me, I also would like to have a children and be around to play with them and watch them grow up and have a family of their own but because of the PCOS I can not have children. I want to change that!!!!!!!

Oh this diet the other big mountian is WATER. I am not a drink water type of person. I joke with everyone and say I am allergic to water because I do not drink water. If its not in my tea or coffee I do not drink it and that is about to change because I have to drink at least 1 gallon of water a day.
(I think)

I already eat like Paleo its it a couple of things that I don't do which is eat. Well I eat but I eat once a day and that is it the rest of the time I am drinking my sugar and calories. Tomorrow I will be starting to eat breakfast and lunch and dinner and no more sugar oh and drink water. It sounds so easy when I am typing it. I know the first week or so will be hard but I have to do it for myself.

HAHA I just thought of something I wonder if I could chew sugar free gum. I am trying to quit smoking and gum helps me not smoke specially with the stress.

Well I will let ya'll know how tomorrow goes. I hope I have not confused you to bad. I start typing one thing and then my mind goes off on something else. lol

Till next time...