Very much so tired

So the past couple of days I have had no engery or anything. All I want to do is slepp sleep sleep.. One of two reason I am dehyrated or I am not getting any sleep because of my mattress. Oh and I am holding water again in my body mainly my hands and stomach. I wake up every morning with my lower back hurting bad. I go out to the couch and fall asleep and my back does not hurt as bad anymore but the tiredness is still there. GRRRRR. I am finally having a cup of coffee right now with the cup my BFF and her family got me for Christmas. I know its not coffee. I think after this cup I will go and have some lemon water or some orange water. Then I will get some bottled smart water tomorrow and gatorade (yes I know its not paleo) but between the water and gatorade I think by Sunday or Monday I will be fully hydrated and I can start working out at the gym. I might also have to go on my PCOS medicine again as well as my BP and Vitamins. I need to quit doing this to my body. I don't think that it helps any either because my periods have been off for the past 2 months and that is when I think I started getting tired and it has just gotten worse. Once I get some of this weight off of me I will have energy and won't be tired all the time. I have my good days and then I have bad days and so far this week has been bad. Well that is all for now I am going to finish drinking my coffee and then start in on some water. Oh yeah my new year has been good so far. I know for sure that sugar and candy is too sweet for me and that my espresso it takes me forever to drink them now. I have almost cut out all sugar in my diet. I do like a teaspoon of sugar in my house coffee but that is even getting to be to sweet and I can't drink the coffee. When I put just heavy whipped cream into my coffee I can drink it without a problem. Now to start cutting other things out of my diet and to start the excerise. Thank you for listening to me until next time take care of your body because its the only one you get.

2013 WEIGHT LOSS DAY BY DAY

So a friend of mine told me to do a dairy of my day. I think I am going to blog it instead of recording myself while finally doing this weight loss life. I can not look at myself without being embarrassed about the way I look. I am going to try and do one every night after my daughter and son go to bed so I can think and type about how the day went and whether I ate and what I ate. I honestly think this will help me. Tomorrow my husband (Kevin) and I go to the gym and I get a new card and he finally will get a card. Then we should start working out together when he can because of work.. I have been putting it off a lot lately and I can not do that anymore. I will take measurements and my weight tomorrow, oh and take a before picture. I haven't decided if I want to do this once a month or every other month or even every 6 months. I honestly don't know yet. But what I can tell you is that I am finally ready in my head to lose the weight and get back into the gym. Why? because I finally showed myself that I can live without the sugar and the espressos and all the junk food. Now I just need to show my body that we can do the gym and to get out of my comfort zone. I keep thinking that when I met my husband 12 years ago that I was able to fit into his size 32 pants. I also know I can do this because when I went into Job Corp I was heavy and I lost the weight because of the walking I did as well as my guy friends took me into the gym and showed me what I needed to do and I lost a lot of weight within 6 months. I remember that part because everyone thought I was doing drugs. I had toned up the weight and dropped the weight so fast. No I was not starving myself my guy friends made sure of it as well as Job Corp made sure of it. I can do this I will not be afraid of the sexy skinny woman in me anymore. She wants to come out and I just keep pushing her down because of being afraid. Well That is all for now just know everyone that I am ready for the new me again even if it does take me another year or 2. I AM TIRED OF BEING FAT AND OBESE!!!!!!! I AM TIRED OF NOT BEING HEALTHY!!!! I AM TIRED OF NOT HAVING ANY ENERGY TO DO STUFF WITH MY DAUGHTER!!!!! I AM READY TO GIVE THE HARD-WORK AND THE DEDICATION!!!!!!! HERE WE GO 2013 I HOPE YOU ARE READY BECAUSE I AM TAKING YOU BY THE HORNS BECAUSE THIS WILL BE MY YEAR!!!!!

Best news ever part 2

My brother Tom and his daughter (my niece) told me about this diet that they were on and how Tom had lost over 80 lbs and I was in awe. I thought to myself that if my brother can lose 80 lbs on this diet then I know I can do this diet so I started asking questions and researching this. Then a friend of mine Charissa told me more about this diet and what the name of it was the Paleo lifestyle or Primal lifestyle or the caveman lifestlye. So in June of 2011 I started walking and doing this lifestyle and trying to cover my sugar addiction Well today is Feb 4, 2012 and I am still down 25-30 lbs and I got a wonderful phone call from the infertility clinic about the fasting blood work and the blood work that they did on Wednesday at the appt. The good news is that the dr said losing the weight that I am losing is very good and told me that if it takes me 2 years to get to my ideal weight then it takes me two years at least I am doing it slow and steady and healthy, second news is that I had to fast for 12 hours and those results are NORMAL I REPEAT NORMAL I do not have to take my metformin medicine anymore!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BLOOD SUGAR LEVELS ARE NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!! MY INSULIN LEVELS ARE NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM FINALLY GETTING THIS PCOS ARE UNDER CONTROL INSTEAD OF IT CONTROLLING ME.. Then the next great news is I AM STILL PRODUCING EGGS!!!!!!!!!!! I AM PRODUCING EGGS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now all the clinic needs to do is look at my male and female hormones as well as do a saline sonogram on me and flushing of my tubes. The dr told kevin it might be a easy fix of just flushing my tubes and I will be back to normal or getting my hormones straightened out.. Either way is fine with me because I am getting healthy and it takes time to get healthy and I am on this train ride for life now... I am still on cloud nine that after 16+ years of taking metformin and having to deal with the side efforts and everything that it only took 6 months of being on the Paleo Lifestyle to change my life. Thank you to Tommy, Charissa for introducing this to me. Thank you to Dr. Le for sending me and listening to me about my PCOS and needing help. THANK YOU THANK YOU.. I am getting my life back since the PCOS stoled it from me. Til next time ] thank you for listening to me

Best news ever part 1

Ok just a real quick talk about what I have and how long I have had it. This way everyone is on the same page when they read this blog. I am a 36 year old female who has never been pregnant nor have I ever had a miscarriage or a tubal. I was told by doctors that I had this things called Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome(PCOS) about 16 yrs ago. I had problems with my periods and weight since I was a preteen. Back in the 80's they had no clue what I had but kept doing pregnancy test after test and PAPs as well. Well all the doctor would tell me from the 80' up until now is you need to lose weight and oh here take this pill and this pills and come back and see me when you have lost over 50 lbs. I have been somewhat heavy my whole teenage and adult life. I remember going into job corp almost 300lbs and into a 44 going into a 46 mens pants. within 3-6 months I was down to where I could wear a 36 mens and I felt better then I ever did. What did I do well Job corp was a campus and you had to walk where ever you needed to go specially when the bus would drop you off in town you walked all over town and just hung out. I think what also helped is I only ate 3 times a day but my pop intake was bad. Now a days the doctors still tell me I need to lose weight, watch what you eat and take this pill and lose the 50lbs. As of today I have lost between 25 and 30 lbs. I keep going up and down some day but I have never regained all my weight I gain one or two pounds and then the time I weigh myself I am back in the teens or I am back in the lower 20's. So right now where I am I am happy wher I am I feel better then I ever had. No I am not going to stop losing the weight no way I want to feel even better then I do. Now that I think we are all on the same page I can tell you what is so cloud 9 about my secert.

Just a small update.

Things have been very busy around the house and everything. Tomorrow I go to Spokane to a Infertility Specialist to see if they can help with my PCOS. Not really the prego part but see if there is something the doctors here in Moses Lake are over looking. I was talking to the clinic in Spokane and they think that maybe I just need my tubes flushed and that will help with my periods. Not a D and C but a flushing I could have something clogging the way. I don't know we will see what they have to say to all the question that I have running through my head. I am also a little scared because of the fact that they could say that the time has come to where the best thing for me is to have a hysterrectomy and I don't know if I am ready to have that done but if it is to make me heathlier then so be it. But like I keep telling myself I will cross that bridge when I get to it. On a different note I have been doing some what good on my paleo lifestyle. I have been slow and steady and I think that is what I want until tomorrow when I talk to the doctor. Here is a before and after picture of the past 7 months.

Well I think that is all for now I will probably blog again tomorrow after my dr appt. Good night everyone.

Paleo Life

Well I have been in the deep end for 8 days now and I am doing ok. It had been very hard with no sugar very hard. I have only drowned a couple of times. But for me that is ok I knew jumping into the deep end would be hard. I am a sugar addict and I admit it. I love my Pepsi and my granita coffee, I keep getting back up wiping myself off and just keep trying. I think in 8 days I had one granita and one Pepsi. For someone who is addicted to sugar having those 2 things in 8 days is pretty darn good.

I have been walking and excersing every day as well as trying to remember to eat 3 times a day.

I just have to keep having faith that I can do this.

Well I think that's it for now. I need to go pick up my son from football and then get dinner going.

Until next time.

Getting ready to jump

I am getting ready to jump feet first in the deep end of the pool and to tell you the truth I am afraid and have always been afraid. What am I talking about you are probably asking.

I am going to start the Paleo Lifestyle tomorrow all by myself. I am not being pressured into doing it or anything and so I think I am ready to do it. MY biggest mountian will be the sugar. I love my Pepsi and my coffee. I have a sweet tooth every now and then I really have not had one lately. MY sweet tooth is usually a pint of Ben and Jerry's in one sitting while watching tv or I will have a bag of chocolate and watch tv and the next thing I know the bag is gone and I feel sick for eating the whole thing.

Sorry back to tomorrow and why I am scared. I know that there is a skinny beautiful free spirited woman in me somewhere and I am afriad of her because I have never met her before. Will I be happier and healthier if I met her? By all means I would be. I have PCOS, High Blood Pressure and My choloestrol is out of whack because of the weight.
I have a 5 yr old daughter who is my everything and she looks up to me, I also would like to have a children and be around to play with them and watch them grow up and have a family of their own but because of the PCOS I can not have children. I want to change that!!!!!!!

Oh this diet the other big mountian is WATER. I am not a drink water type of person. I joke with everyone and say I am allergic to water because I do not drink water. If its not in my tea or coffee I do not drink it and that is about to change because I have to drink at least 1 gallon of water a day.
(I think)

I already eat like Paleo its it a couple of things that I don't do which is eat. Well I eat but I eat once a day and that is it the rest of the time I am drinking my sugar and calories. Tomorrow I will be starting to eat breakfast and lunch and dinner and no more sugar oh and drink water. It sounds so easy when I am typing it. I know the first week or so will be hard but I have to do it for myself.

HAHA I just thought of something I wonder if I could chew sugar free gum. I am trying to quit smoking and gum helps me not smoke specially with the stress.

Well I will let ya'll know how tomorrow goes. I hope I have not confused you to bad. I start typing one thing and then my mind goes off on something else. lol

Till next time...